12.20.2006
The Countdown Begins!
Ok -3 Days until Justin's Birthday!
5 Days until Christmas!
Hours from going CRAZY. Making cookies. Wrapping presents. Getting the kids in bed. Wrapping presents. Cleaning up the kitchen. Figuring out what else I need to get before Christmas. Wrapping presents.
Try not to go too crazy!
Oh - I almost forgot, I have one less thing to go crazy about. Justin is in the clear. His bones are finally growing together and making new bones ! YAY! No more appointments for two weeks!
And maybe I should try and write out my Christmas cards that have been in a tote bag that I brought to Justin's last surgery. You know the ones I was thinking I would have a chance to do them then - which I have basically forgotten about until now. Will they even get there in time?
Should I just forget everything and just go CRAZY now???
Labels: birthdays, boys, Christmas, Christmas Presents, daughter, doctors, family, family life, girls, house, husbands, kids, presents, son, teens, work
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11.23.2006
Happy Birthday & Happy Thanksgiving!
Happy Birthday to you.Happy Birthday to you.
Happy Birthday my Jo-Jo.
Happy Birthday to you!
Joey is 7 years old today! He had a great day.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone, and please remember those who are less fortunate.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone, and please remember those who are less fortunate.
Labels: birthdays, boys, family, family life, kids, life
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11.18.2006
Remembering.
Remembering Jeffrey & Joshua.They would have been 17 years old today.
I can't believe that they would have been 17 already if they made it past their first and last few hours of life.
My twin baby boys.
I cannot believe that we have never been to their place of burial since we buried them. Oh - I think I may have tried to find them in the part of the cemetery that is reserved for the littlest of Angels - as they call it. I think I made an attempt at finding them when my Grandpa died in 1992.
It is quite sad that I never want to go there or to look back at what could have been.
Would they have been healthy if the Doctors could have been able to save them? What hardships and disabilities would they have had to endure? Were Jeff & I strong enough to handle it? Would I have still wanted to have Johnny & Joey - assuming that it was in God's hands that I were to raise 4 children and only had Justin and Caci? Was it a blessing in disguise? I could not imagine my life without the children that I have now. They are my world!
It is so very sad that we have moved on in life, and never even placed a marker at the twins grave. They are buried together and at the time they died, the size of the foot stone that was allowed would not fit both of their names and date of birth/death on it. I wonder if they have lifted the restrictions on that?
Maybe I should be strong enough and get a marker with at least their names on it to remember them by. Or would it bring back too many memories of the devastation of it all - all of the what ifs?
I think I have made my New Years resolution. I think that all of the kids are old enough to handle it and they should be a part of choosing it.
It is the least I can do for the twins that made room in our life for the children I have now.
I love you, Jeffrey and Joshua. Born and taken to heaven on November 18th, 1989.
Labels: birthdays, boys, burials, cemetary, death, family, family life, twins
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11.14.2006
No More Wishes!
JoJo and I were talking today when the subject came up about making wishes.You have heard the sayings -
When you see a shooting star - make a wish.
Blow your fallen eyelash off of your finger - make a wish.
Blow out your birthday candles - make a wish.
And we have concluded: No more wishes here, for they never come true.
Labels: birthdays, family, kids, son
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